Alone

The World may be changing, it may be getting flatter, it may be getting more connected, cellphones, Internet connecting just about anyone from home to the moon.Technology maybe making our life's more easy..But one thing I definitely know is that although the world maybe changing but not us we r not changing, we are still what we were back in the ancient pre-Civilization era….i.e Social Beings we may have come a long way but our basic needs are the same. Marriages happen … love comes.. friends are made… Acquaintances r sought… Still we are lonely, I am most of u are and at times there is no one around to listen to us. People are blaming the government for not listening to them, couples are fighting over trivial matter like who loves the other the most, marriages are crashing just because of non-communication.I like everybody else has the same problems and like everybody else I think my problems are the biggest than any other problems others r facing, I have the same trouble of not having someone who I can talk it out with,not because I don’t have friends its just because I don’t use them .In this busy world people rarely do have time for their friends. I feel that people are so into themselves that sometimes they forget to acknowledge the other person, give them time, cut them a little slack, forgive their mistakes and most of all appreciate their being there for you !People today want to scale the Mt. Everest ‘Alone’… win a million dollars ‘Alone’… Make a amazing breakthrough ‘Alone’ little do they think of their friends r companions when wishing these things. To these ppl all I can say is “Good luck Up There All Alone”Coming back to me, I have many friends and I love everyone of them and its sheer luck that throughout my school life n college life I have made thousands of friends n also kept my friendship with them till now. Even today a day never escapes when I don’t spot a friend of mine down the road. I may be recognizable, reputed in their eyes but only a handful of them really know me. They don’t know bout me, don’t know my secrets, know my love, my aspirations, fears.All they know is me, My name and my goofy character, on the contrary I know each of them inside out, their well guarded secrets.Three years in college and I haven’t spent more than 10hrs each with them, its not because I don’t want to just that I just listen to these guys their problems, cheer them up, solve their problems that come in a dozen … and just try to ease their troubles with laughs. When that's done I just scoot off before anyone can dig into me. All these years in college I can safely say no one will be able to tell ‘What my prized possession r the thing I care bout is’ r for that matter my ‘nickname’.All my life I have been a loner, a unit, uno.. thus now whenever anyone tries to get close I shut him off but then I am the one who is stuck in my room on those gloomy days wishing I had someone to talk to.So you may ask how do I de-stress n who I tell myself to.. the answer is I don’t know how to get the stress out cause its always stuck there, n I don’t speak my mind out to anyone.The reason is that no one has genuinely sat down with me without their pre-installed problems and asked me ‘How r you? ” cause no one has been persistent enough to ask me “Is there something wrong? ” I tell my friends that I am an open book but little do they realise U have to turn the pages manually if u like to read one. I know all I said was crap cause the fault is in me, I am not the one opening up, My super-ego dosn't like me going to my friends door and saying “I am in trouble, Help Me ! ” People in relationship are quick to dole out advice even though they r usually the ones who r messed up, whether they are considering breaking up over a slim-jim or having troubles in their relations r just trying to get some attention.My friends usually just bitch about their relationships all day long, glare all u want but its true and sometimes couples start fighting over small things just because they may be scared of their relationship and; sometimes people just sabotage their future n relations from the outside fearin things that will never occur. Honestly U guys what gives me comfort, when I am sitting at home staring at the ceiling just Wishing I had someone to talk to, is knowing that none of U idiots realise how lucky U ppl are..I don’t think people are meant to be by themselves,That’s why If U actually find someone you care about Its important to let go of the little things even if U cannot let go all the way, because nothing sucks more, than feeling all alone no matter how many people are around.